Last week I had an interview. Though I was masked up and possibly overdressed, I did manage to make the three interviewers laugh.

But then one of them said something that bursted the “interviewing mode” bubble that I was in.

She said, “It sounds like you have a lot of options, and that you don’t know what you really want.”

I played her statement off pretty well, “I like to keep my options open. But right now this job in education is something that I really want to do.”

I ended up getting offered the position, but declined it as it didn’t feel completely right.

And what bothers me the most is what she said.

Am I supposed to know what I want at this time? What my goals should be in the long term? I never knew what I wanted to be when I was young, and I still don’t know now that my thirties are around the corner.

I pursued English Education because I love to write and I love seeing children grow confident in themselves (and they’re hilarious). But the bureaucracy of the educational institution is somewhat off putting.

I believe I am repulsed by the thought of being tied down to one job and the idea of having that job define me as a person.

But when it comes down to it,

Money is money and cash is king.

I may not know what job I want to have, but I do know that when it comes down to it, I will work.